speechless...

Has anyone had those family "discussions" where people end up in tears and it all seems so pointless? And you know no matter how much you talk about whats going wrong, nothing will change, because some people  are just so god damn stubborn. Well my family and i had one of those tonight. it was horrendous. completely repetitive and pointless, because i knew as soon as i got told to sit at the dining table. i knew it was going to be the same banter and arguments. who does this and who does that. who doesnt help around the house and who does. which parent does all the running around and which doesnt. Nothing will change because in all honesty, my sister and i are stubborn. we get that from our father. Although, when told from mum, we do indeed do what we have to. I, myself dont always have time to clean my room or put my clothes away because im juggling year 12 VCE (life or death) and a part time job which i work 13.5 hours a week. i know what some of you are thinking "yeah yeah thats nothing, i work more than you", yes that may be true, but its a lot to handle, what with the homework load.
So anyway, with this "discussion" i just wanted to leg it back to my room and do my homework. Your probably thinking 'omg she actually willingly wanted to do homework'. Well yes, anything would of been better than sitting in the dining room have yelling competitions on who has a more valid argument to uphold. like f*ck, i think i speak for my sister and i when saying we know when were in the wrong, but can also hold a valid point when bringing forward our opinions. After all we're educated.
i doubt any of my words will sink in to my dads head especially. My mum is quite understanding and will listen. My dad as a very "anything i say goes" attitude, its ridiculous. But only 9 more months until im 18, legal and can get my license so i can go out whenever i wish :D
I dont expect any of you to feel sorry for me or anything like that, im just using my blog as part of a venting system every now and then. so if its too depressing i give you permission to stop reading whenever you wish, and on that note im going to end it there.

Thalia xox